The Hambini fiasco and eight other bloopers of being a woman in the cycling industry

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I left a job at a local newspaper to immerse myself in the cycling industry  just under a decade ago.

It’s been a journey. The cycling community is full of so many wonderful characters whom I respect very deeply. The industry is also constantly improving, and I’d say it’s getting easier and easier to be a woman within it – levels of respect are growing markedly. I’m pleased I exist in this life now, and not ten years ago. However, in my time I’ve come across plenty of face-meet-palm moments.

The ‘Hambini’ fiasco/asks 44k people to comment on my vagina one

Hambini is an engineer operating a YouTube channel.

In April 2020, he produced a video that contained a comment about me. I took issue with both the sexual nature of the invitation for comment and some of the replies.

I shared the images below on Twitter with the caption: “Why does the cycling industry find it SO hard to attract women in key positions?”

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Hambini comments

The initial video produced by Hambini was deleted, by YouTube, for violating its policies on harassment and bullying.

My objection to the comments, and removal of the material, prompted a comeback video that further criticised me, and referenced this blog post.

The comeback video included substantial inaccuracies. The flaws within the video were so excellently summed up by RoadCC that I really have little to add. Inaccuracies included an allegation that I had broken Covid guidelines, which was not the case. The first ride used to illustrate this was before lockdown, and the other was permitted daily exercise.

Hambini’s video led to a flood of abusive messages being sent to me. Most of the messages shared a very similar language, with repeated use of words that are commonly associated with the Incel social media ‘movement’. I was either a “silly girl”, a “feminazi”, a “whore” or a “roastie” (I had to Google that one).

Hambini claimed to have zoomed in on my rides, videoing them so he could take note of where I had stopped – before sharing images of routes to his followers. He commented “I got 45 minutes of me going through her Strava account with every minute detail annotated”, and “in a video it’s much easier to see where she stopped as you move the cursor.”  This attention on my whereabouts, alongside the comments which I read to be sexually agressive and the large and geographically diverse audience, concerned me.

I reported the events to the police. I told the police that I did not want to press any charges, I just wanted the harassment to stop. Hambini’s local police force told me via email that they visited him, to give him “suitable words of advice,” providing documentation that could form part of a formal caution if the situation escalated. They later told me via email that the matter was dealt with via a community resolution. Hambini claims that the police informed him during that visit that the matter had been “dropped”. Hambini described his experience in a video on YouTube, which has now been removed, for violating YouTube’s Terms of Service.

Hambini then produced two blog posts, with publish dates in December 2020 (8 months after his first comments about me) and January 2021 (nine months after the first comments). These include Google Street View images from the outside of my home, my home address (I have sinced moved home), inaccurate discussion of my medical history and fertility (very strange that Hambini states doctors have told him I may have PCOS, based on an article about Red-S, which mentions ultrasounds, used by doctors to rule out PCOS), entirely false accusations of driving offences based upon searching MOT records (once, a garage broke the brake hoses on our car during an MOT – unsruprisingly, they fixed that before the car left the garage), false allegations of the use of YouTube accounts under alternative names, discussion of the alignment of my teeth and so on.

Videos produced over the last year have included comments about items being “more f*cked than Michelle’s vagina”, and a rant about a “dishwasher called.. Michelle. No Miele” and giving it a “good f*cking kicking because it’s just a piece of sh*t it’s so disobedient,” Hambini added “so if you have a dishwasher out there that’s called Michelle, sorry, Meiele, if it’s disobedient remember to give it a good f*cking kicking. Or a reaming, In fact, there’s a hole, a drain hole, I’m sure it’s an H7 fit, but it started out life as an M7. That’s a capital M.”

Some of these videos have been removed, by YouTube, for violating its policies on sexual content and/or harassment and bullying.

Hambini’s initial video, produced over a year ago, discussed an aero testing video I produced with Cycling Weekly. Hambini disagreed with the method employed by the expert we chose to assist us – in this case Aerocoach’s Xavier Disley.

Like any journalist, I love speaking to reliable experts (for example, those publishing under a verifiable name, and with a trustable reputation), and discussing their opinions. It’s very normal for experts to disagree – that’s called critiquing and it’s how we progress and learn as a human race. But I believe that this conversation needs to be honest and respectful for it to be useful or meaningful for anyone involved.

Hambini also suggested that the aero testing video had been paid for. This was not the case. All promotional content is marked clearly as sponsored, as per the rules all media must adhere to.

If there is one thing I learned through this whole, to be honest quite upsetting ordeal, it is that the cycling community I know and love has my back. I received some nasty, personal messages and read a lot of comments I’d rather not have – but I also received many kind messages and offers of support from the cycling community. So, thank you.

The saddles

I’m not big into women’s specific bikes – but I am keen on components that fit.

The number of times I’ve been asked to ride a bike with a saddle that seemed to have a personal vendetta against my ever having a sex life ever again is obscene. Pro tip: always take your own saddle if you’re not riding your own bike.

In most cases, the bike industry specs unisex bikes with saddles designed for men. Which is why press bikes are sometimes not fun for me – but much more importantly (and why I refuse to shut up about this), why every single beginner women’s ride I’ve guided has been dominated by talk of saddle discomfort. Ditto, every Facebook/WhatsApp group serving women on bikes.

Women are being put off cycling before they’ve had a chance to get hooked because the stock saddle is very often a torture device for them. And it would be so easy to fix. Sure, finding the right saddle for you can take work, but if all bikes sold to women were fitted with a saddle vaguely in keeping with the average female anatomy it would go a long way to increasing female participation.

The ‘is this your girlfriend?’ one

I’ve just waved my dictaphone below the face of the owner of a leading bike brand, for around ten minutes. Now I am sauntering around the factory – next to a male journalist who I became acquainted with around an hour ago.

Bike brand owner to male journalist: “Is this your wife?”

Me: “No.”

Bike brand owner: “Is this your girlfriend?”

Me: “No… I am a journalist. Also on your factory tour. I just interviewed you.”

Maybe I asked the wrong questions – but at the time queries about the pro team the brand sponsors and disc brakes seemed pretty representative of what any other journalists might ask.

‘When a woman says something intelligent, she gets more kudos’

I was once told (face to face by a peer, we’re not talking social media comment trolls) that female journalists receive greater respect from the audience, because they’re impressed that a woman has the capacity to understand the science/tech/racing all on her own with her tiny little brain.

I’m not sure if I was meant to agree and feel great sympathy for the men who are no doubt womansplained to and patronised at all angles. I’ve lost count of the number of female mechanics who tell me customers literally look like they’ve been threatened with a machine gun when they suggest that they are indeed about to take their bike into the workshop and [shockhorror] fix it for them.

The ‘aero tits’

I’ve just interviewed a former team mechanic, about tyre pressure of all things. Sexy subject, I know.

He’s also a bike fitter so when I mention I’ve had some knee pain I think nothing of a quick bike fit check up whilst I’m there. Until he turns into a complete creep, insisting on making comments about my un-aero-boobs via private messaging despite repeated replies along the lines of “I’m not interested (and also married)”.

I didn’t mention this to anyone, I was young, naiive and embarrassed. Other women spoke up after receiving similar treatment and the mechanic was sacked.

Closely related: the ex-colleague who DMed me to say “I wouldn’t mind seeing you in the shower, like what’s his name did”. I’ve no idea what he’s talking about but spent the next week wondering if I once forgot to lock the shower door.

The ‘unisex titles don’t want to hear about women’s product’ one

Forty journalists sit through a several hour long presentation about a new men’s product, before the two women invited are treated to an additional 30 minutes on the women’s iteration. During which one marketeer comments “female pro cyclists don’t need women’s products, because they’re hardcore.”

Needless to say, the majority went away and wrote about the men’s product, with no real information about the women’s version – since no one had really bothered to tell them about it. And seemingly some members of the team felt women’s product was redundant for those who are ‘hardcore’ enough, anyway.

Surprise and congratulations for… being able to keep up

Sometimes, brands will invite a group of journalists out for a bike ride – usually for the launch of a new product, so you can all try it together and chat to the creators.

I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve joined the “long” or “fast” ride (read: it’s rarely that long or that fast, most of us spend our days at desks) to be congratulated with a comment along the lines of “GIRL POWER.”

I once high-fived the guy back and shouted “BOY POWER.” I don’t think he got the joke.

This isn’t about who is, isn’t, should be, shouldn’t be, faster or slower. It’d just be nice to feel like less of an “other”, I suppose.

Being told you can’t keep up (or descend fast)

For example, the time the route looked to be particularly hilly and the ride guide glanced around at the four assembled male journalists (who were all awesome, btw), commenting, “you will be fine”, before staring pointedly at me and adding “you, I’m not so sure.” The repressed rage got me to the top of the most of the hills first, so that worked out well.

Another close personal favourite was the women’s bike launch where no rider was allowed to overtake the guide, who proceeded to ride embarrassingly slowly, on the descents. This has never, ever happened on a mixed launch.

Always being the ‘only girl’ on the photoshoot

Grimacing madly whilst being sent off in various orders to promote assorted views of gender politics.

The result is that it’s always intensely difficult to find a picture of two women actually riding their bikes together. Ditto, anyone from the BAME community. And this, among other reasons, is why the cycling media has a massive representation problem.

Published by michellearthursbrennan

I'm an NCTJ Journalist and work at Cycling Weekly. Previous to this, I was the Editor at Total Women's Cycling. I've also dabbled in marketing and copywriting - having been Marketing Coordinator and Social Media/Content Editor at Evans Cycles. My first job was working on a local newspaper.  I've written for a variety of titles on a freelance basis, too. I got into cycling when I entered my first triathlon in 2010. I now race crits, road races, time trials, and do a lot of track training for not very much track racing.

24 thoughts on “The Hambini fiasco and eight other bloopers of being a woman in the cycling industry

  1. Reading this article left me feeling incredibly mad so I can only imagine your inner rage experiencing it first hand. Still such a long way to go, sigh.

    1. Nope, it’s not. I know his full name. I wouldn’t share it becasue seeking to reveal someone’s name, when they’ve chosen to hide it, arguably comes under malicious communications. It would also put both their privacy and safety at risk, and whilst that’s exactly what’s been done to me, two wrongs don’t make a right.

      1. NB: I’ve temporarily removed comments which sought to provide identifying details for “Hambini.” This information is available elsewhere in the public domain, but I don’t want my own website to be a source.

        When people are miserable with their own lives, they usually try to bring others down. Best to ignore them completely.

  2. Heya all the way from America. Just wanted to tell you to keep up the good fight against the bad guys who don’t want us to succeed! There are a lot of groups of bad people on this planet but we’re a different breed

  3. Hello Michelle,

    I would like give you my full support in your reaction to Hambini.
    This is not innocent behaviour.
    As a father of a 4 year old daughter, I do not want her to grow up in a world where this behaviour is tolerated let alone be considered normal.
    It strikes me how few men reacted to this or replied along the lines of ‘if you don’t like it don’t watch it’.
    This is part of the problem too.

    1. Thanks mate. The funny thing is I was a subscriber briefly in the early days, I was interested in what he had to say about bicycles. Hell I might have even got in contact for an interview. But then it all went a bit downhill, personal abuse is just not cool, and some of the other accusations about data and fake letters make it hard to trust anything.
      Re the lack of support in the comments, don’t despair too much for your daughter or for the human race, I had people contact me to say they’d commented but their comment had disappeared. Smoke and mirrors.

  4. You just sound angry and are probably not a very fun person to hang out with. Try to chill out and enjoy your life by looking at the positives.

  5. Michelle, I somehow stumbled across this and I am disgusted by the behaviour of “Hambini”. I read his blog in full. He’s so offensive. Knowing you and seeing how you interact with people I’m sure you will use this experience to grow and will come out of it stronger and with many people supporting you. I am one of the many! Hopefully catch up soon on the pristine tarmac. Keep up the good work.

    1. Darren! Lovely to hear from you. And thank you. Of course, it wasn’t much fun at the time, but you’re absolutely right, I am so much more confident and stronger as a result. Haterz ganna hate, is the phrase. It is actually quite concerning how easy platforms make it to share lies and misinformation – makes me realise quite how valuable the principles of journalism are – and how heavily social platforms have allowed them to be eroded. There’s a mainstream newspaper feature in there somewhere…
      Hope all is well amid the pristine tarmac – hope to ride together soon!

  6. Hello Michelle, I read in some of the forums that you are having IVF treatment, as a fellow cyclist could you tell how it is affecting your cycling.

    1. Hi Maria, thanks for getting in touch! I’m afraid my relevant knowledge/experience is basically zero on this topic – I’m not having IVF, or trying to start a family at this point in my life, so I’m really sorry but I can’t offer a lot of help.

      Hormones do of course play a huge role in cycling – and I use the FitR woman app to track my cycle, so it’s not a massive WTF when my legs go “nope” for a few days every month. I’ve also written a lot about Red-S in the past, which is where cycling can have a negative effect on hormone levels for men and women – our CW survey showed it was very prevalent – for me personally fixing that problem I had in my 20s was just about being far more disciplined with fueling before, during and after rides – paying special attention to ensuring I was getting enough carbs. It’s a topic I’m really passionate about discussing as it affects so many women – particularly amateurs (who are often trying to juggle training and work, letting fueling take a back seat) and pros (under massive pressure).

      Anyway – none of that answers your question. However, YouTuber Juliet Elliott was very open and honest about her IVF experience – both on the channel and on Instagram. I’ve met Juliet at track meets and she is such a lovely, warm and welcoming person – so perhaps check out some of her posts. I hope you find some answers! Best port of call is of course a medical professional – but I can understand you might be looking more for experience over advice.

  7. Cycling elitism is a thing I figure any “nonstandard” (read hetero, male, skinny, and probably white) would have to deal with, but the extent to which women have to suffer through it is nauseating. I’m so sorry this has happened to you. Reading this blog, you seem resolute and undeterred from being an awesome sports journalist, which is good. Can’t let the douchebros win.

    And commenting on your nethers…Christ, some of us just never graduate from secondary school.

  8. I actually found this because of some comments on a Hambini post and wanted to know what it was about. I was until 10 minutes ago a Hambini fan. He’s vulgar, but it’s a stick, and frankly the issues with BBs is worth cussing about.

    My wife is a super strong cyclist especially in endurance climbing over 40, and she gets so much crap from dudes (especially older) out there. She can’t pass someone without her showing off, or someone says she found some magical cassette that makes climbing easy for her. People pass her all the time since she is a woman and can’t go fast only to then slow down by a good 5-10mph when they can’t handle the front of the peloton. It pisses me off so much and I am so sorry that you have been targeted like you have.

    BUT! Thank you for taking a stand for you and for my wife, and for the generations of cyclists to come

  9. Couldn’t care if people are any gender, black or white, atheist and religious etc.

    They should all be treated equally and with respect.

    Prejudice is dinosaur that has needs reminding that it’s time to be extinct.

  10. There is no prejudice and you know it. He does the same to guys. It’s his kind of humor and sarcasm. You just play the female victim card. Really, really embarrassing.

    1. Please, do feel free to find another example of a situation where he has: published comments about videoing someone’s whereabouts, published their full addresss, published Google images of the outside of their house, extended the pursuit to their spouse (who has no connection to the cycling industry), explored MOT records of vehicles owned by the spouse of the target to falsely allege offenses, made unsubstantiated claims about their fertility… Etc. I’ll wait.

  11. Wow, just stumbled across this blog post. I wish it were hard to believe that men can relate to women like this and think that it is ok – but it’s not and it isn’t. I never cease to be amazed at the abusive and derogatory behaviour that we as HUMANS (because that is what we all are) show each other every day. Sadly, it is exactly this sort of behaviour that perpetuates an attitude toward woman that leads to events like Sarah Everard’s death and where it is directed at ethnic groups (or any other arbitrary categorisation people) to wars and genocide.

    I found that way you have recounted these events professional and thoughtful. You seem like a strong and well centred person and I hope you don’t let them colour your perspective on human nature and men in particular. Thank you for sharing.

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