Self Directed Kindness- SDK

Tues – 2200m ish swim

Today I hit a wall. The thick, heavy wall of psychological failure.

What I didn’t mention in the weeks schedule (last post) is that on Firday-Rest-Day I donated a pint of blood. Following this, I continued to train as normally as possible. Ah-ha-ha. Not so smart.

Consequently, I had a rubbish swim on Saturday. I did decide to take it easy as a result, but the initial shock of my body not doing as I ordered it to has been playing on my mind ever since. I got a few sets into todays swim, and kept being haunted by this horrible reminisence of breathlessness in the water. As a (until now…) closet claustraphobic, I find any feelings of breathlessness usually result in panic. My mind was asking my body if it was really capable, and telling my limbs they were heavy. I got half way through, and was so tempted to get out. So, I sat at the side, gave myself a good pep-talk (not out loud!), and plunged back in. It took a few lengths, but I kepy positive, and finished the set with relative ease.

Sometimes (often) I find that being a little harsh on myself is a pretty useful training tool. Telling myself not to be lazy and that I can do so much more usually works, but today, a little self-sympathy was needed. At this level, I discover new attitudes to training almost every day. Today, I decided a little self-directed kindness goes a long way.

I am an NCTJ qualified journalist and copywriter with a year’s worth of experience as a local hack, and just under two years’ of experience working in the marketing department for a highstreet retailer. I currently work at Cycling Weekly, previous to this I was the editor at Total Women's Cycling. I do a little freelance writing alongside my job, and have written for Runner’s World, Triathlete’s World, Sussex Sport, Basingstoke Gazette newspaper, the Brighton Argus, Steve Hart Photography and 2LK Design. I blog to record the activities in my life which I don’t want to forget when I’m old and wrinkly (let’s hope the internet never melts down – but it seems safer than a notebook) – to let old friends and family know what I’m up to, and because I enjoy playing with words. I’m always looking for new projects – and you can email me should you ever need someone with an energetic passion for word doodling. Email: michelle.arthurs@gmail.com Twitter: @RideWriteRepeat Instagram: @RideWriteRepeat

1 comment on “Self Directed Kindness- SDK

  1. Good on you for taking it easier on yourself. Unfortunately, some of us are overly-sympathetic towards ourselves all the time. :-S

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